June 2003 Archives

John Lennon said that life is what happens to you when you are busy making other plans. Thats so true.

Sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday, and then other times it seems like it was centuries ago. Which ever way you look at it, time has a knack of slipping away and passing us by.

On Friday night I went out with a bunch of friends that I used to work with, we went to a French eatery - one which we had been to before that we really liked, so we decided to go back. Whilst there it dawned upon me it had been a year - almost to the day since we had been there last. And yet it seemed like just yesterday.

Catching up with my friends there it also dawned on me how distant I had grown to some of them and yet how close I had become to others. Something which time couldnt displace or touch. How different we had all become, yet at how similar we had remained.

Learning new things about people I thought I knew very well and which I could never have predicted. Hearing a story from a different perspective.. seeing another side of something.. having the light shine on it from a different angle, and then understanding another person's perspective.. and having that open or close a door..

Russell and Kurt werent at this dinner the other night. They are from a different circle of friends. But for the last few years - yes its been years - we have been planning to get together and catch up for drinks. It seems like only yesterday that we spoke about it, but it has been years. We now, the plans have finally been made. Next Friday we are scheduled for a drink. Will it be odd? How much will we have changed, will we still get along?

We have been planning this get together for years now.. yet it seems like only yesterday- how come it has taken do long.. . How did that happen? Life happened to us, thats what happened.. we were too busy making plans to notice.

I have previously wrote about the problem that 'choice' introduces in your life.. and yet again it strikes. I really do think we, or atleast I, would be better off if there was no choice :) Someone just sit me down and tell me how its got to be and I will do that.. I may not be as happy, in the long run (or would I?) but wouldnt life be easier..

.. if you never taste chocolate then you will never know that you really want it..

Take work for example, am I happy at work? Yes. Could I be happier, yes - but that doesnt mean I am not happy now. Did I leave my old job because I wasnt that happy there, yes. Have they just recently advertised some vacant positions back in my old job, yes. Am I considering applying for them. Yes. Would this mean I was back in my old job where I was not happy. Yes - maybe.. I dont know. This is the problem. Do we only remember the good things?

The grass cant always be greener can it?

People, please stop tempting me and I am sure I will be happy ok. Dont send me your advertising.. dont let my old boss ring me up and tell me I should be applying for X job because I am needed back there.. dont let me taste the new chocolate orange that is on the market.. dont tell me that I should be curious about the new Vanilla-choc-mint-ice-cold-coke-in-the-new-stream-lined-bottle.

I dont need it. I am happy as I am.. right?

My brother told me that he really liked the new Nick Cave CD. I said that I wasnt much of a fan and that I found his earlier stuff quite sad and depressing - thats coming from a Smiths fan.

He said that no his new CD isnt like that and that I should give it a go. So I got a copy of it and I figured I would give it a go. On the way home from work today I put it on the car Cd player. Track one, was ok, but a bit sad. Track two, and I sunk lower into my seat. Track 3 and I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. Track 4 and I hated my life and wondered why it was all worth it. Track 5 and I was just about to get out of my car and lay down in the middle of the road. I turned the damn thing off and put the radio on and listened to some upbeat pop for the rest of the drive home.

I told me brother he was an idiot and that that was one of the saddest and most depressing CDs I had ever heard and that I would probably need therapy for the rest of my life. My asked me what the title of the CD was and said, 'oh no, thats the one before his most recent one.. that ones really depressing.. dont listen to that!".

Tomorrow I will let you know what I think of the 'new' proper CD.

I was woken from my slumber last night at midnight - having just got to sleep - by the sound of BEEP, BEEP, BEEP, BEEP...

Not knowing what the sound was, panicing that it may be the smoke detector warning me of a smouldering fire somewhere in the house, I jumped out of bed to find that it was my organiser advising me that it today (12.00.01 am) it was my mate Jason's birthday.

Yeah great.. thanks for that.. happy (yawn) birthday buddy..

Sometimes you just dont have anything to say. So why say it?

For those of you from work who were interested.. here is your starting point to find that ever elusive DVD firmware.. go here and then follow the links to DVD Firmware.

This one gets a mention because of the flash.. I think its cool.. wish I had designed it. Open it up full screen (or scroll down) or else you will miss the cool shadow effect.. well done..